
(Thank you, Jenn, as always!)
It’s that time of week again . . . but today’s WIAW is a little different than usual. Instead of food porn (although I also have a recipe to share later, never fear!), I’m here to matter-of-factly discuss metabolism.
Why?
Because mine is screwed up.
I’d first sensed something wasn’t quite right a couple months ago. I was steadily gaining weight, even though my diet and lifestyle hadn’t changed. I was working out 4-5 times a week and eating an average of 2000 calories a day. I was confused and irritated. It didn’t make any sense!
Well, my suspicions were confirmed on Monday when I finally visited a dietician to have my metabolism tested using a special machine called the BodyGem. I was shocked to discover than my Resting Metabolic Rate (RMR) is 1100.
Say that again?
Even the dietician was surprised. It was the second lowest RMR she’d ever seen. After adding in certain lifestyle factors, she determined that, to maintain my current weight, I must eat no more than 1540 calories per day. The average 22-year-old, tall, and active girl should be able to enjoy at least 2000, if not more.
Not. fair.
My initial reply: “That’s not a lot of food! How will I get through the day without feeling like I’m starving?”
Good question.
So, we talked, about possible causes, solutions, and strategies.
Causes
- Previous eating disorder—it’s been a long, long time since I severely restricted my intake, so I question whether or not this still applies, but it’s possible, I suppose. The body can take some time to respond to starvation mode, according to the dietician.
- Stress—prior to my mother’s death in mid-December, I had been maintaining my weight without any problems. Since then, I’ve gained 4-5 pounds. My body could be in survival, a.k.a. fight-or-flight, mode just due to copious amounts of stress.
- Underactive thyroid—we ruled this one out, since I just had my yearly physical in January and my thyroid was a-okay.
- Recent change in diet—yes, I moved away from snacking in December, after years of doing so! Why? Because I thought it would be better for my metabolism, as per this article’s recommendation, but boy, was I wrong!
Yes, my metabolism is struggling right now, but the dietician assured me that it’s not permanently damaged. I’m no expert, but I think it was largely due to stress from last year and not snacking as of late, both of which likely messed with blood sugar and cortisol levels, hence more metabolic/weight issues. With time and careful maintenance, though, I should be able to rev up my RMR to a more normal level.
Solutions
- Diet—eating every 3-4 hours again, plus consuming at least 73 g of protein for my stats (so upping my consumption of tempeh and seitan–it’s easy to get enough protein as a vegan, despite the infamous and misleading myth!). Snacks are a must, even before bedtime. Drinking lots of water and green tea. I am keeping a food diary, too. So far, I’m balancing calories-in vs. calories-out pretty well. Fortunately, non-starchy veggies can be eaten in abundance and exercising allows me to eat more than that measly 1500 calories . . .
- Keep exercising—the usual cardio routine, plus walking everywhere and biking, too, now that the weather is gorgeous! Then, add regular resistance training to build lean muscle. My problem? My body fat content is only 16% as it is! So, I’m sticking to yoga and pilates and focusing on “toning” only.
- Regular, quality sleep—this was never a problem, but I’m definitely striving for the most rejuvenating nights possible now.
- Manage stress—this is always my downfall. Not gunna lie, I’m one stressed lady . . . but I know I have the tools to manage it. I just need to keep on truckin’.
Despite all the stress, despite this new stress concerning my metabolism, I actually find I am even more comfortable in my own skin.
I wasn’t devastated by the news.
I was empowered.
I reflected over the past 4 years, recalling the very day when everything went downhill, when good intentions spiraled into destructive tendencies. Those good intentions have haunted me ever since, coming back to sabotage me upon more than one occasion. My poor body endured quite a lot those days . . . yet, even at its weakest, it still faithfully functioned (somehow). I beat it down, but it was forgiving and still supported me. I wish I could rectify the past, correct my mistakes. My disordered habits wreaked havoc on myself, my family, my then-boyfriend-now-husband, my friends. I wasted a lot of time brooding over my body. I jeopardized my own life . . . just to be skinny of all things.
At my lowest weight, I was actually embarrassed about my appearance. Even though I never admitted it outright, I knew I looked like a skeleton, but I was addicted to the “high” associated with weight loss success. Gaining 10 pounds not only saved my life, but also convinced me for the first time in my entire life that I was beautiful, even sexy as my curves returned and I filled out.
Before Monday’s appointment, that old “fat” mentality had been strangling me again, just because I’d gained 4-5 more pounds. I was consumed with jealousy, anger, resent, and just plain ol’ negativity in numerous manifestations.
After Monday’s appointment, I left feeling strangely . . . free, for the first time in what seems like forever. I wasn’t angry with myself—instead, I was wonderfully compassionate and gave myself some slack: 2011 was a traumatic year, so it’s no wonder my body is somewhat out-of-whack!
Nonetheless, I feel confident and content. Yes, I’m counting calories (which is really a pain, let me tell you, but it’s a must at the moment), but it’s not to restrict–it’s to eat every. single. calorie. my metabolism (plus exercise) allows in a day because I LOVE to eat!—and if I eat slightly more, well, I’m not going to stress out about it, cut back the next day, or overexercise. I won’t be weighing myself anytime soon either, and honestly, I could care less. I’m going by how my clothes fit. I’m no longer concerned with “skinny” or even “thin.” I want to be strong, healthy, and, most of all, happy. I want to be able to eat a slice of vegan cheesecake and still have daily calories to spare.
So I am trusting my body and its intuition wholeheartedly, treating it like the temple that it is, and I know, with time, it will repair itself and rediscover its intrinsic balance. I may gain a little more weight in the process, but I’m okay with that.

I'm fully making peace with myself at last . . . no more dwelling over days long gone.
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I’m sorry, Body, for all the hurt I’ve inflicted. I’ll never do it again, I promise. From here on out, we shall be the best of buds. I’ll take care of you if you take care of me, okay?
How long will it take? It depends—every body is different in its recovery. I scheduled a follow-up appointment with the dietician for August 1st; she is confident I can make a lot of progress between now and then. I believe I can, too.
I believe in ME.
I also believe in fairies. And gnomes. And leprechauns, too, of course! This Saturday is St. Patrick’s Day, and you can bet on the Blarney Stone I’ll be jigging to Irish tunes all day. This week’s one-pot meal is inspired by traditional Irish fare and contains an ingredient rarely seen on Vegan on the Go-Go: alcohol.
Irish Beer, Barley, & Seitan Soup
Inspired by this recipe
Serves 8-12
Ingredients
2 cups hulled barley, soaked overnight and cooked
1 batch of seitan (using this recipe, your own recipe, or store-bought)
5-6 garlic cloves, minced
1 large onion
2 carrots, coined
1 medium parsnip, coined
1 celery stalk, chopped
1 tsp. dried thyme
1 tsp. dried rosemary
1 tsp. ground marjoram
3 bay leaves
1 vegan bouillon cube
1 cup beer of choice (We used Killian’s Irish Red, which is vegan)
1 Tbs. soy sauce, tamari, shoyu, or liquid aminos
5-6 drops liquid smoke
½ large head of cabbage, shredded
2 roasted sweet potatoes, chopped into bite-size pieces
1 cup frozen green peas
Salt & pepper, to taste
Directions
- In a very large pot, heat 1 Tbs. oil and sauté garlic, onion, carrots, parsnip, and celery for 3-4 minutes, or until carrots are tender. Stir in herbs, coating everything well.
- To the pot, add 6 cups of water, the bouillon cube, beer, and liquid smoke. Bring to a boil and reduce to medium-high heat before adding cabbage, allowing to slowly cook for 10-15 minutes, until cabbage is tender.
- Stir in sweet potato, barley, seitan, and peas. Cook another 4-5 minutes, until everything is heated through. Serve piping hot.
